will we ever meet again??

huiii~ 4 years have passed by since he left for somewhere far far away. Felt like it was just yesterday when we said goodbye to each other. Recently we have been fought a little(juz a lil^^). However, I have never hit him anymore even in the facebook. I am a lil bit sad but what can I do.. I dont want him to be depressed because of me.. It is very clear to me that he is not and will not fall in love with me even a tiny bit of it. He will not.. But.. ottokae~ I miss him but he wont contact me even he is in hometown currently. I always wonder if we will ever be able to see each other again. I wonder if he..too..miss me like I do. Im still hoping that he will come back here. but still... It will only be my sweetest dream.. What should I do.... Im in the last semester of my study and cant wait to grad!hihi.. but currently something is missing inside of me. Its like a part of is not here. Maybe I just bored. Today my costing lecturer asked me of my ambition. I just answered I wanna have a job with highest possible salary. Thus, she called me "money eyes"..huk3 Ironically, it is not my real ambition. How could I tell the whole class that my ambition is to happily married and live with my true love? I will be teased for the whole semester for sure. Nahh~ It doesnt matter anyway whether people know or not about my dream. My true love...who is he? I will become more and more beautiful lady to make him likes me.I will....

Day after day...

I work... I apply for universities.. But it seems like i dont have a life anymore. Ahmet has moved to somewhere far from here. Even how many times I said I miss him I still dont get to see him anymore.. Will we ever meet again??? Hmm.. I heard that he has a girlfriend there and she was pretty and slim.Ahh..I just had to give up I think.. Thus, I start to find another guy and I befriend with a guy from Sabah, Bus. Well, he was so kind and funny. Event hough he not that handsome and cool, he was a non-smoker, kind and generous to me. Thats why I accept his proposal to be his girlfriend. Bus always care about me and forgive me for every mistake I did. But it was only for a brief. After ayear, he started to change a bit by bit. He started to be a bad-tempered person and always want to win in everytime we fight. I was wondered if I had made a big mistakes.In the end of the year, I got accepted in a university in Accountancy course. I dont know what accountancy is but my mom was really happy and thats made want to try it. After awhile there, I was quite happy, even though I dont really have a bestfriend there, all of my classmate and one particular senior is very nice to me. Im not easy to get close with other people especially the ones that not have same interest as me.In the first year, I have a roomate which is a freshman too, named Izah. With her, we got quite close in the beginning but a dispute rose between us in the end of the first sem that made us strangers. Well, for the first semester I awarded with Dean List title for a GPA of 3.53. Im so happy and attended the first and the last DL dinner in my 3 years at that university. In the second semester, I have befriended with a senior named Fara. she was fun ans we have kinda same interest(actually she taught me about this!), One Piece and movies.. One Piece is an anime/manga about a pirate named Monkey D. Luffy with all of his 8 nakamas lead various of adventures. That anime was the best of all!!! Fara also taught me about movies and lots of movies. To be her roomate for that second semester was the thing I very grateful because it had become a starting point where I had so much fun in university life.But sadly, in that second sem my CGPA has decrease to 3.23. It was so and my fault for not studying for exams. But ots okay though as long as I have fun.

Unwanted separation...

People... friends.. they will not stay together forever.. including us too.. After grad from high school, we seldom meet each other.. We dont hangout together coz everybody was so busy preparing themselves for the future. Fiez was helping her mom, Tash was busy n unreachable. Sah was busy with her stpm.. Me too had entered the stpm but i quit coz too much pressure. Im not a person who like to study thus i cant keep up with such pressure. Other classmates got into various matriculation and university. I got into matrix but i did not go because the registration date was already closed by the time i received the notice. I got into several Us but i dont like it bcoz some in Terengganu, some are private Us which are very expensive and some are offered the course that i dont want. By that time, i dont know what course i wanna take or which U wanna go.I just enjoy every moment bcoz i still can see Ahmet at least once in a week. However, one day, he told me he is going to move to somewhere that very2 far away. even I never been there before.. Though he still owe me a punch, he moved there, and further his study there. I dont know what to think.. just.. Will I ever going to meet him again someday?? I always known that we cant stay together forever. Everybody has go on their own path to find a meaning in their own life. To experience bittersweet of life and learn how to appreciate every moment. I was just so sad.. Maybe we will gather again someday..like d old days.. Finally, I accepted the offer from a local U which is within my state and just about 4 hours from my home. I cant separate from my family after all.. I hope I can taste a life when I got into there~^^